( connor can't help himself. every time hank gives any indicators that he's willing to go further, connor grabs the sign and runs with it. he'd rather push until hank tells him to slow or spot than not take everything possible now that they're potentially on the cards.it took six months of heartache and a lot of alcohol on connor's part to finally get them here. who knows what, if anything, will make this happen again.
if this is the only time, connor will greedily take everything hank is willing to give him. and right now that feels like everything.
hank's hand is on connor's ass and he gives a short gasp against his mouth. it's permission to hold hank tighter and bring the older man with him as he shifts to lie back on the couch. once he's properly horizontal it's so much easier to get the angle right to grind his hips up into hank's roughly, and he's got no shame about the fact that he's already half-hard.
connor resists the tug at his hair, enough that it stings just a little when hank pulls, but after the moment of resistance he bares his throat quickly. when hank's lips touch his skin, connor rolls his hips up into hank's again. he can't stop the breathy moan that falls from his mouth, desperate and unbidden.
he wants to ask him for more, wants hank to bite and mark him, but at least one of them is off limits. so connor presses his hand to the back of hank's head and pulls him back to his throat, while wrapping a leg around hank's hips and digging his heel into the man's lower back insistently. )
[ there is everything terrible about this, from hank just about ravaging a tipsy connor on his couch to the fact that connor is very much attached -- to a man hank just about despises. so many reasons to stop this where it is, to nip this thing in the bud before it gets worse and it's impossible to explain away, but hank has turned away for too long, avoided the truth of connor's feelings and his own, and tonight it seems like all of this is rearing up with a vengeance.
it doesn't help, too, that connor clings so tightly to him, pulling him back and wrapping a leg around his hips, so much so that he can feel him, hard in his trousers just from this, is it? he finds a bruise, a fading one, and it's madness that takes over him when he bites over it, aware that it was probably a 'gift' gavin had left for him. hank takes these, too, feeling a perverse, forbidden rush of taking something from the man, of taking connor for himself.
he'll regret this, perhaps; or he won't. perhaps this will be yet another casualty on the list of bad decisions that hank seems to keep making, perhaps he won't. all he knows is that he needs him, that hank can't find it in himself to stop, especially not after that desperate, sweet, soft moan.
he's rearing up to kiss him deeply now, again, his own dick stiffening at how connor's grinding them both together, how he can feel him right there, and how can hank not take what's there, how can he stand back again and let him go? so he grasps connor and kisses him deeply, again and again, as desperate as he is, his other hand coming to tug on his belt buckle, his zipper, insistent and ferocious. he's held himself back too damn long, denied himself the incredible wonder of connor's embrace and he can't find it in himself to continue holding back.
( connor thinks, not at all dramatically, that if he doesn't get his hands on hank's skin he might die.
hank bites at connor's throat and in response connor's hips snap up against hank's, a ragged groan ripped from his throat. it's not enough, he needs more, and he's not worried with letting hank set the pace any more. connor wants him, more than he's wanted anyone before, and he's never been so convinced that he needed skin to skin contact.
connor's hands drop to hank's hem, and then one dips under the shirt to feel slowly up hank's stomach and chest as the other drops to his waistband. hank is already undoing himself and connor quickly helps the process along. he hooks his hand into the pants once they're undone, sliding around to grope hank's ass briefly before shoving the pants down as best as he can in this position.
he doesn't want to speak, something he's sure will break the moment, but he wants to let hank know just how badly he wants him, how pressing his need really is. so he doesn't even pull away from hank's desperate kissing, lips moving against hank's as he speaks straight into his mouth. )
Touch me, please. ( he sighs again, shoves at hank's pants again and grinds up harder. ) I need you.
[ if hank doesn't get to touch him properly, he definitely will die. he can practically hear that groan right to his dick, lovely and stunning and everything he's ever desired, and when connor feels him up hank knows he's lost.
he's lost to that seeking touch, to the way connor's fingers track over his heated skin, searing where it touches, and hank's reaching for connor's without thinking, when he pushes down his own pants so his dick's practically springing out, almost fully hard and flushed dark with arousal. he's pressing up against him, demanding and wanting, and when connor speaks against his mouth hank only growls. ]
Pants off. Off.
[ wrong, so wrong, but connor tells hank that he needs him and that's all hank thinks about. connor must not be wholly happy with reed, then, if he can say this to him, and perhaps hank might be doing the right thing here, saving connor from his misery. he's fumbling for connor's pants, unzipping him and tugging it down firmly, licking into his mouth to ravage it, and when he finally gets connor out, his hand comes to curl around his dick.
he wants to feel him, to touch him, to hear him whine and moan and curl around him. he loves being needed by connor like this, like he's the only one who can grant him absolution, and he nips at his tongue softly. ]
( hank's cock springs free from his pants and connor honest to god moans at the sight, a move that makes him feel more like a horny, lusty med school slut than a distinguished doctor in his own right. he doesn't much care though, because as soon as hank is free the man is working to get connor out of his pants too.
he's only too happy to assist, shoving them down at the back as hank handles the zipper and button, and once his own dick is out of his pants connor quickly focuses his attention on getting them down enough that his ass is out too. not that he has plans in mind for how this needs to go now, or anything.
( he definitely plans on hank fucking him until he can't walk, if the other man is agreeable )
with his pants down just about enough, connor brings one hand back up to the back of hank's neck, holding him close and kissing him hard to muffle the sounds. connor has always been vocal, and while that's fine in some situations sometimes it's a little...embarrassing. he's already writhing and pleading with hank, he doesn't need to be moaning and whining at every tiny touch too.
he grasps the man's cock, grip firm, and when he realises his fingers don't fully reach around his girth connor moans again. still, it doesn't stop connor from slowly pumping his fist slowly along hank's length, hips rocking into hank's hand and teeth nibbling along hank's lower lip sweetly as he formulates a coherent reply. )
Don't wait any longer then. ( he murmurs, squeezing hank's cock a little harder than is strictly pleasurable, and he drops his body fully back down to the couch, space appearing between them as he looks up at hank. all intensity, lust, need. god, he hasn't burned with desire like this in a long time. ) Make me yours.
[ make me yours, and connor seals it just as much as hank does, when he squeezes his cock and hank goes out of his his mind with lust, with his own irrepressible desire for all that connor is. he's groaning now, low and wrecked and so entirely gone for the sake of connor's pleasure, caught on just how delicious he sounds, how he feels.
it's too late to turn back now, too late to explain that it's a fluke without breaking something between them, and hank finds that he doesn't want to, even if he can, so he's rocking his hips into connor's lovely hand, thrusting deliberately into him as if proving yes, yes, he's definitely fucking bigger, and he can't help the thudding of his heart. however, he knows he must do something better than this -- he has to, because this couch is too small for the both of them, and hank fully intends to make this one count if he's going to be doing a shitty thing, anyway.
so he moves, away. not far enough to deny connor, but enough to make a point. and fuck, oh, hank knows exactly what he's doing. ]
Bed. Not here.
[ bed, where reed ostensibly fucks connor -- bed, where hank will defile it all over again and where connor will remember the memory of this night branded into every ounce of him. ]
( when hank moves away from him there's a moment where connor's eyes widen and he reaches out quickly, one hand still on hank's dick as the other grabs hold of the first thing it reaches. it's hank's upper arm, and he grips tightly, and – oh.
hank says bed and connor's hand immediately loosens – doesn't let go, but he's not digging his fingers in hard enough to leave little red marks now. hank isn't pulling away, he's just relocating, and as soon as the idea is put out there connor is seized with thoughts of hank in his bed. just like that, connor knows he has to have him in there. just once, just this time, just to know what it could have been like.
just once, and then never again.
connor quickly surges up, presses his lips up against hank's into a clumsy kiss that lands closer to the corner of hank's mouth than his lips. he manages to get up to his knees on the couch without ever having to let go of hank's cock, quite an achievement really considering he's still pretty damn tipsy, and once he's up like that he presses their chests together, leaning in and resting his forehead against hank's. he craves the contact, pressing himself up against hank and struggling to think of any scenario where he isn't touching hank. they've got to get to the bedroom somehow, but it's so far away. )
Yes. Yes. ( connor mumbles quickly, finally letting go of hank's dick and cupping both of his cheeks again. this time the kiss lands on target, and he's quick to deepen it, licking into hank's mouth and brushing his tongue against the older man's teasingly.
just like that connor pulls away entirely, tugs his pants back up over his hips so that he can actually walk unencumbered, and gestures for hank to follow. ) This way.
( he smiles, heated and so, so turned on. he's hard enough for his pants to tent over his erection, and when he turns to walk to his room without checking to make sure hank follows he's already pressing the heel of his hand into his crotch to give himself a taste of friction to grind against. it kills him not to check for hank behind him, but connor manages to get into the bedroom without looking.
and once he's in there, he shoves his hand down the front of his pants and quickly draws his cock out, lazily pumping down the length with his eyes closed as he stands in his bedroom, waiting for hank. )
[ hank is unable to help himself, barreling towards what is surely mutually assured destruction. connor pulls away and moves ahead of him and a part of hank wonders if connor is regretting it -- it doesn't look like he is, even when he pulls his pants back up. the line of the younger doctor's back is impossibly attractive; supple and sleek and made just for fucking, to be put on his back and pounded until he's giddy with it.
he entertains those thoughts as he follows after him, and it's a welcome sight when connor draws his cock out -- it means that he's as serious as hank is and they're most definitely cheating on gavin and hank doesn't bring himself to care. his connor is getting off in front of him, shameless and innocently sweet all at once, and hank can't help but close the distance between them, grasping his chin and tilting his face up to his firmly.
he kisses him now, deeply and passionately, wanting the slide of his tongue against his, wanting not to think as he pushes connor's pants off, then his own. there are too many clothes between them, and he's waited too damn long to be thwarted from what he wants. ]
Off.
[ he almost snarls, backing him towards the foot of the bed. ]
Everything -- get naked.
[ he's dreamed of this moment for so long, so damn long that he doesn't want to give it up now; he wants to see all of him, he wants him, and everything about this is like a page out of his wettest dreams because fuck if connor isn't wholly fuckable, if people won't go to their knees just for him. ]
( hank takes hold of his chin, tips his head, and connor opens his eyes – half-opens, really, he's still lazily stroking his erection and it's hard to do much more than that – but when hank kisses him connor stops touching himself long enough to help shove his pants back down.
and he's backing him to the bed, ordering him around, and heat immediately pools in his abdomen, his dick twitches and he complies without so much as a whisper of protest. he sheds his shirt, doesn't even bother to tease, and though he takes a moment to fold it before dropping it on the floor, the pants don't get any of the same care. he kicks his pants and underwear off his ankles, tossing them away quickly.
now he's fully naked, so hard he thinks it might start to hurt soon, and he levels his eyes at hank. he's not drunk any more, it's been enough time that he's just tipsy now and he doesn't sway as he looks at hank with a heady, lusty gaze that just screams desire. this has been the object of a number of fantasies he's had – ones he's been having since he met hank, if he's being honest. )
How do you want me? ( he asks, a slight smirk curving at his lips as his hand comes back to his cock, though he doesn't actually start stroking himself again, just gripping it now. ) Just– take me Hank, however you want. Ruin me, please.
( okay, maybe he's a little more than tipsy. or maybe hank is just able to get connor to ask for exactly what he wants. )
[ it's in this moment that hank knows there's no turning back. connor is looking back at him, clear-eyed and determined, and hank should probably feel guilty about fucking someone behind his boyfriend's back -- he's never really been that kind of guy until connor came along, with all his bad decisions and wearing his heart on his sleeve -- and he decides fuck it.
fuck it, because he's always wanted connor more than he's wanted anything else, and he shoves aside that pang of conscience before he shoves him to the bed, crawling in above him as he gives him a hungry, ravenous once-over. connor is beautiful, so beautiful tonight that his breath catches in his throat. the scant light from the windows illuminate his fair, fair skin, the smattering of moles and freckles only serving to make him more comely.
and then he's grasping his cock, and while hank knows alcohol tends to have the opposite effect on dicks, it's heartening to know that connor's already hard. he's leaning down to kiss him just to shut him up, his hand curling around connor's to join him, tightening briefly so that he can thrust into it. ]
Want you on your back. [ he tells him gruffly. ] You're looking at only me when I fuck you.
( this is going to destroy connor when he wakes up – because of what happened, because of the hangover, but mostly because he doesn't feel guilty. he's aware that he's doing something wrong, but he doesn't think about gavin at all as hank rushes him onto the bed flat on his back.
god, he wants him so badly. connor whines softly at the touch – just the hands on him, pushing him onto the bed, hank isn't even touching his erection yet and connor's already practically begging for him. no, not practically. he's begging. )
God, yes, okay. Only looking at you, yes. ( connor reaches up, a loud moan coming from low in his throat that connor tries to suppress and fails miserably. his hands find hank's face, he grabs hold of the man's cheeks, rubbing fingers through his beard as he rolls his hips into hank's touch. his movements are needy, demanding, desperate even. connor isn't exactly the most patient person in the world to begin with – when it's a rather demanding boner and the man of his dreams touching it, it's only natural he'll be a little impatient. )
Hank, fuck, I want you. ( connor rarely swears. that's quite an achievement. he huffs out slowly, tugs his hands a little on the beard hair, fights to keep his eyes open and on the man above him. ) I'll do anything, anything.
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if this is the only time, connor will greedily take everything hank is willing to give him. and right now that feels like everything.
hank's hand is on connor's ass and he gives a short gasp against his mouth. it's permission to hold hank tighter and bring the older man with him as he shifts to lie back on the couch. once he's properly horizontal it's so much easier to get the angle right to grind his hips up into hank's roughly, and he's got no shame about the fact that he's already half-hard.
connor resists the tug at his hair, enough that it stings just a little when hank pulls, but after the moment of resistance he bares his throat quickly. when hank's lips touch his skin, connor rolls his hips up into hank's again. he can't stop the breathy moan that falls from his mouth, desperate and unbidden.
he wants to ask him for more, wants hank to bite and mark him, but at least one of them is off limits. so connor presses his hand to the back of hank's head and pulls him back to his throat, while wrapping a leg around hank's hips and digging his heel into the man's lower back insistently. )
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it doesn't help, too, that connor clings so tightly to him, pulling him back and wrapping a leg around his hips, so much so that he can feel him, hard in his trousers just from this, is it? he finds a bruise, a fading one, and it's madness that takes over him when he bites over it, aware that it was probably a 'gift' gavin had left for him. hank takes these, too, feeling a perverse, forbidden rush of taking something from the man, of taking connor for himself.
he'll regret this, perhaps; or he won't. perhaps this will be yet another casualty on the list of bad decisions that hank seems to keep making, perhaps he won't. all he knows is that he needs him, that hank can't find it in himself to stop, especially not after that desperate, sweet, soft moan.
he's rearing up to kiss him deeply now, again, his own dick stiffening at how connor's grinding them both together, how he can feel him right there, and how can hank not take what's there, how can he stand back again and let him go? so he grasps connor and kisses him deeply, again and again, as desperate as he is, his other hand coming to tug on his belt buckle, his zipper, insistent and ferocious. he's held himself back too damn long, denied himself the incredible wonder of connor's embrace and he can't find it in himself to continue holding back.
hurry. hurry the fuck up. ]
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hank bites at connor's throat and in response connor's hips snap up against hank's, a ragged groan ripped from his throat. it's not enough, he needs more, and he's not worried with letting hank set the pace any more. connor wants him, more than he's wanted anyone before, and he's never been so convinced that he needed skin to skin contact.
connor's hands drop to hank's hem, and then one dips under the shirt to feel slowly up hank's stomach and chest as the other drops to his waistband. hank is already undoing himself and connor quickly helps the process along. he hooks his hand into the pants once they're undone, sliding around to grope hank's ass briefly before shoving the pants down as best as he can in this position.
he doesn't want to speak, something he's sure will break the moment, but he wants to let hank know just how badly he wants him, how pressing his need really is. so he doesn't even pull away from hank's desperate kissing, lips moving against hank's as he speaks straight into his mouth. )
Touch me, please. ( he sighs again, shoves at hank's pants again and grinds up harder. ) I need you.
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he's lost to that seeking touch, to the way connor's fingers track over his heated skin, searing where it touches, and hank's reaching for connor's without thinking, when he pushes down his own pants so his dick's practically springing out, almost fully hard and flushed dark with arousal. he's pressing up against him, demanding and wanting, and when connor speaks against his mouth hank only growls. ]
Pants off. Off.
[ wrong, so wrong, but connor tells hank that he needs him and that's all hank thinks about. connor must not be wholly happy with reed, then, if he can say this to him, and perhaps hank might be doing the right thing here, saving connor from his misery. he's fumbling for connor's pants, unzipping him and tugging it down firmly, licking into his mouth to ravage it, and when he finally gets connor out, his hand comes to curl around his dick.
he wants to feel him, to touch him, to hear him whine and moan and curl around him. he loves being needed by connor like this, like he's the only one who can grant him absolution, and he nips at his tongue softly. ]
Waited too long.
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he's only too happy to assist, shoving them down at the back as hank handles the zipper and button, and once his own dick is out of his pants connor quickly focuses his attention on getting them down enough that his ass is out too. not that he has plans in mind for how this needs to go now, or anything.
( he definitely plans on hank fucking him until he can't walk, if the other man is agreeable )
with his pants down just about enough, connor brings one hand back up to the back of hank's neck, holding him close and kissing him hard to muffle the sounds. connor has always been vocal, and while that's fine in some situations sometimes it's a little...embarrassing. he's already writhing and pleading with hank, he doesn't need to be moaning and whining at every tiny touch too.
he grasps the man's cock, grip firm, and when he realises his fingers don't fully reach around his girth connor moans again. still, it doesn't stop connor from slowly pumping his fist slowly along hank's length, hips rocking into hank's hand and teeth nibbling along hank's lower lip sweetly as he formulates a coherent reply. )
Don't wait any longer then. ( he murmurs, squeezing hank's cock a little harder than is strictly pleasurable, and he drops his body fully back down to the couch, space appearing between them as he looks up at hank. all intensity, lust, need. god, he hasn't burned with desire like this in a long time. ) Make me yours.
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it's too late to turn back now, too late to explain that it's a fluke without breaking something between them, and hank finds that he doesn't want to, even if he can, so he's rocking his hips into connor's lovely hand, thrusting deliberately into him as if proving yes, yes, he's definitely fucking bigger, and he can't help the thudding of his heart. however, he knows he must do something better than this -- he has to, because this couch is too small for the both of them, and hank fully intends to make this one count if he's going to be doing a shitty thing, anyway.
so he moves, away. not far enough to deny connor, but enough to make a point. and fuck, oh, hank knows exactly what he's doing. ]
Bed. Not here.
[ bed, where reed ostensibly fucks connor -- bed, where hank will defile it all over again and where connor will remember the memory of this night branded into every ounce of him. ]
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hank says bed and connor's hand immediately loosens – doesn't let go, but he's not digging his fingers in hard enough to leave little red marks now. hank isn't pulling away, he's just relocating, and as soon as the idea is put out there connor is seized with thoughts of hank in his bed. just like that, connor knows he has to have him in there. just once, just this time, just to know what it could have been like.
just once, and then never again.
connor quickly surges up, presses his lips up against hank's into a clumsy kiss that lands closer to the corner of hank's mouth than his lips. he manages to get up to his knees on the couch without ever having to let go of hank's cock, quite an achievement really considering he's still pretty damn tipsy, and once he's up like that he presses their chests together, leaning in and resting his forehead against hank's. he craves the contact, pressing himself up against hank and struggling to think of any scenario where he isn't touching hank. they've got to get to the bedroom somehow, but it's so far away. )
Yes. Yes. ( connor mumbles quickly, finally letting go of hank's dick and cupping both of his cheeks again. this time the kiss lands on target, and he's quick to deepen it, licking into hank's mouth and brushing his tongue against the older man's teasingly.
just like that connor pulls away entirely, tugs his pants back up over his hips so that he can actually walk unencumbered, and gestures for hank to follow. ) This way.
( he smiles, heated and so, so turned on. he's hard enough for his pants to tent over his erection, and when he turns to walk to his room without checking to make sure hank follows he's already pressing the heel of his hand into his crotch to give himself a taste of friction to grind against. it kills him not to check for hank behind him, but connor manages to get into the bedroom without looking.
and once he's in there, he shoves his hand down the front of his pants and quickly draws his cock out, lazily pumping down the length with his eyes closed as he stands in his bedroom, waiting for hank. )
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he entertains those thoughts as he follows after him, and it's a welcome sight when connor draws his cock out -- it means that he's as serious as hank is and they're most definitely cheating on gavin and hank doesn't bring himself to care. his connor is getting off in front of him, shameless and innocently sweet all at once, and hank can't help but close the distance between them, grasping his chin and tilting his face up to his firmly.
he kisses him now, deeply and passionately, wanting the slide of his tongue against his, wanting not to think as he pushes connor's pants off, then his own. there are too many clothes between them, and he's waited too damn long to be thwarted from what he wants. ]
Off.
[ he almost snarls, backing him towards the foot of the bed. ]
Everything -- get naked.
[ he's dreamed of this moment for so long, so damn long that he doesn't want to give it up now; he wants to see all of him, he wants him, and everything about this is like a page out of his wettest dreams because fuck if connor isn't wholly fuckable, if people won't go to their knees just for him. ]
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and he's backing him to the bed, ordering him around, and heat immediately pools in his abdomen, his dick twitches and he complies without so much as a whisper of protest. he sheds his shirt, doesn't even bother to tease, and though he takes a moment to fold it before dropping it on the floor, the pants don't get any of the same care. he kicks his pants and underwear off his ankles, tossing them away quickly.
now he's fully naked, so hard he thinks it might start to hurt soon, and he levels his eyes at hank. he's not drunk any more, it's been enough time that he's just tipsy now and he doesn't sway as he looks at hank with a heady, lusty gaze that just screams desire. this has been the object of a number of fantasies he's had – ones he's been having since he met hank, if he's being honest. )
How do you want me? ( he asks, a slight smirk curving at his lips as his hand comes back to his cock, though he doesn't actually start stroking himself again, just gripping it now. ) Just– take me Hank, however you want. Ruin me, please.
( okay, maybe he's a little more than tipsy. or maybe hank is just able to get connor to ask for exactly what he wants. )
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fuck it, because he's always wanted connor more than he's wanted anything else, and he shoves aside that pang of conscience before he shoves him to the bed, crawling in above him as he gives him a hungry, ravenous once-over. connor is beautiful, so beautiful tonight that his breath catches in his throat. the scant light from the windows illuminate his fair, fair skin, the smattering of moles and freckles only serving to make him more comely.
and then he's grasping his cock, and while hank knows alcohol tends to have the opposite effect on dicks, it's heartening to know that connor's already hard. he's leaning down to kiss him just to shut him up, his hand curling around connor's to join him, tightening briefly so that he can thrust into it. ]
Want you on your back. [ he tells him gruffly. ] You're looking at only me when I fuck you.
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god, he wants him so badly. connor whines softly at the touch – just the hands on him, pushing him onto the bed, hank isn't even touching his erection yet and connor's already practically begging for him. no, not practically. he's begging. )
God, yes, okay. Only looking at you, yes. ( connor reaches up, a loud moan coming from low in his throat that connor tries to suppress and fails miserably. his hands find hank's face, he grabs hold of the man's cheeks, rubbing fingers through his beard as he rolls his hips into hank's touch. his movements are needy, demanding, desperate even. connor isn't exactly the most patient person in the world to begin with – when it's a rather demanding boner and the man of his dreams touching it, it's only natural he'll be a little impatient. )
Hank, fuck, I want you. ( connor rarely swears. that's quite an achievement. he huffs out slowly, tugs his hands a little on the beard hair, fights to keep his eyes open and on the man above him. ) I'll do anything, anything.